lalala~nothing to update...stay at home for few days edi...fungus+mushroom+etc growing edi...hehe^^
oh ya!!goh han jie bully me!!beat him up!!beat him up!!
ok ok...i know i am lame...nothing to do mah...haiz...
kacau my dear...since no one chat with me...sigh...

went for praying last night...zhong hua gong hui there...it's chingay time...again...anyway...this is the first time i went there o...never been there before...study at jb for so many years edi also never been there before o...funny right...haha~is was so crowded last night...many people went there to pray pray...saw many beggar there...dont understand why they dont go and find a proper job...they are just as normal as us!!sigh...went to eat dinner+supper after that...that satay babi finish edi...sad man...

today morning should go for jogging with dear de...but he's not stay next to me...far away from me...i dont dare to take bus and go out early in the morning la...ok...you can said that i am lazy...anyway...dear sleep until very late too...nowadays ah...dear wont be able to wake up early in the morning liao la...piggy!!!

i thought dear will go out with me today de...but he didn't...haiz...feel so bored stay at home these few days...keep on thinking what course should i choose...my head gonna burst someday ba...haiz...

dear..i want hug hug...but i know you wont see what i wrote de...you seldom or never come and see de...what you care about is your songs...your prison break...your heroes...i mean the things that you will see...or watch...
ok...i know i should learn to be independence...i should learn to grow up...i shouldn't rely on you so much...but...i need you...

i think i should go and find a job...shouldn't stay at home and goyang kaki anymore...

hmmm...what can i write today??honestly...i dont know...sad right?dont even know what to write...where is that girl who has lots of rubbish to talk about...??where are you???faster come back la...

still...feel very down today...decided to clean my room...packed all my cds...wipe almost everything in my room...want to make myself exhausted...then i will be able to sleep well tonight...but it seems like...it doesn't work ba...dont even feel tired lo...

i still cant decide what to fill in for my 8 pilihan...i was thinking whether i can choose bachelor science(mathematic)...or chemistry...or law...that's the only thing appear in my mind now...but now...what i am worry about is...am i able to go through all these things??am i able to survive??really in a dilemma now...
looking at those papers on the table make me feel so stress...i need to take a break!!

oh ya!!saw something in the newspaper today...angela's coming to malaysia!!this saturday at sungai wang plaza...430pm...she's going to singapore on sunday...bugis...430pm too...
i wanne go!!love her voice and her song la!!who can go with me???

hmmm...i need someone to talk to me...someone accompany me...feel so lonely now...but i am not in the mood to bother anyone...what am i thinking o?!really weird la me...can you act normal a bit??people wont understand you la...

i need to go out and have fun!!
that's it...

现在的心情超想哭的...
未来...茫然...失措...没有了方向...毫无头绪...
头好痛...

谁能...
陪我说说话...

我需要一个能让我好好放松的地方...
我需要一个没有压力的地方...
我需要透一透气...

决定了...这一篇要用中文的...
今天哦...我又出去了...已经是这个星期第5天出去了...

因为啊...那天我很苯啊...买到两本同样的漫画...今天宝贝就带我去换咯...然后啊...女生嘛...开始购物了...嘻嘻^^最近很会买东西哦...宝贝应该也差不多要习惯了吧...哈哈~今天收获不大...只是两双凉鞋...嘻嘻^^

宝贝说哦...成绩可能下星期公布...大选之前公布...怕怕...虽然之前就有听朋友说会在2月尾3月头公布...但是还是很担心...很怕没有大学要收我...呜...

原本想说下星期要去玩的...但是如果真的要回去拿成绩...就不能了啊...嗨...我的计划又要泡汤了...

对了!!刚刚和宝贝去看show village哦...超漂亮的!!我未来的家也要大大间,漂漂亮亮的~
要有那个摇摇...小小的游泳池...花园...窗旁边还有坐坐...主人房的浴室要大大的...要有浴缸哦...最好浴室是用玻璃做的...透明的...天花板也是...还要有一个专放衣服的地方...还有大大的床...都要美美的...dear应该明白我在说什么...

期待我未来的家~~

wake up late today morning...was talking with dear until very late last night...
went to school to get my cert...after that we went to pelangi redbox...hehe^^
now got no voice edi...i thought i will be able to meet eehsin...but somehow she didn't appear...haiz...miss this girl la...i miss those i met today too^^

wonder what's jacyln doing now...hehe^^

met a senior when we wanne take the bus and go home...she shared her experience with us...about apply uni...sigh...make me feel so down....feel so lost now...haiz...

anyway...i wanne go for vacation!!!!!
who wants to go with me???????

haiz...really fall sick edi...flu...a bit coughing...dear really offline liao...didn't care for me....bad guy!!!


ok...i cant think of anything that i wanne talk about now...have to sleep edi..going out wwith jacyln they all tomorrow...sing k!!hmmm...but dont noe whether me able to sing or not...my voice ah...haiz...

have to sleep now...good night^^

dizzy dizzy....haiz...
went out again...with dear...have brunch again...haha~dear really can eat a lot lo!!!

went to lots of places today o...leisure mall...nearby mah...then holiday plaza o!!!!!!!!!!still remember last time we went there with kexin,weijee and phengjoo...after maths tuition...went to lavender for lunch before dear go for physics tuition...that was...lower six!!still remember those time...waiting for him at 2pm...then we go pat-tuo...those sweet time....will never forget...



























i miss my dear....

went out today...with dear...he ah..haiz...naughty la...not obedient de...haha~


went to eat laksa...then go and buy things...and then...GO HOME!!haha~


dear help me wrap my comics...hehe^^
so nice ah he...haha~


and then he has to go home...his mum called him edi ba...haiz...how i wish dear is still with me now...never mind...i still get to see him if i want ba...hehe^^

oh ya!!i wanne go for vacation!!dont know whether juivy they all can make it or not...hav to ask them ba...must bring jacyln out la...play play play!!!hehe^^

honestly...i dont know what am i typing lo...dont know what to write actually...
i forget something...they kiss again episode 10!!going to watch now~

update!!!

got my new handphone edi!!hehe^^

k850i~

happy happy o^^

but then...this few days really not feeling well lo...sick edi ba...sigh...
drink more water!!rest more!!
that's all for now...update later...

went back to sigs today...together with jacyln...to get our cert disahkan...saw few teachers...who taught us before...


went to cs after that...jacyln met her ah-gor...he really look different from photo edi...handsome liao la...haha~


me walk around in popular...always the place where i wait for dear...dear was late...he's wearing white again...is it influence by me...?


dear always kena bully by me la...always make him carry my bag for me...but he really look nice with my bag la...aiyo...so unfair...he looks nice in almost everything de...

hungry hungry~we have our brunch at vivo...the first time we ate for so long ba...haha~
walk around...again...
honestly...there's no place for us to hang around in jb edi la...haiz...somemore not safe at all...haiz...

tummy pain pain again....walk back home...bad piggy din teman me...*bluek*...lie on my bed...but couldn't sleep...turn here and there...sms-ing...got a call from dear...finally fall asleep...
wake up...no dinner for me...sigh...cook curry beehoon...dont know whether my tummy can tahan or not...haiz...if tonight cannot sleep again...then sure die de la...dear sure scold me de...

tired la...dont know whether wenshu they all coming to my house tomorrow or not...have to confirm with her...

that's all for today ba...night night^^

happy valentine's day!!

today is valentine's day o!!情人节快乐~
went to dear's place today...didn't really celebrate or what...but as long as he's by my side...that's more than enough edi...
last night i didn't sleep well...tummy pain pain lo...haiz...feel like dying liao lo...
honestly la...i dont think i will be able to walk around with dear...that's why i change my mind last minute...keep on changing my mind lo...luckily dear din scold me...haha~



dear...know what??really can feel your love lo...really...you will always in my heart...even though i always complain that you are not good enough...but i know you are the best...for me...dear...promise me...you will always be here with me...forever...









i love you,hanjie.

you guys know what????jacyln came to my house today o!!!
we went out this morning...to buy things...went to pelangi...she bought a pair of shoes...i bought something *secret* for dear...
we walk around....then go cs to have lunch...
after that we went home!!i mean jacyln and me came back to my house!!haha~first time o!!
that little heng heng ah...very bad la...he dont want me to carry him!!he wants jacyln to carry him!!!angry la!!!!
she go online while i'm wrapping something....haha~

after that she's going back home....

and now i'm online-ing...chat with juivy...write my blog....darm boring la....i wanne go out!!!!!!!!!!

dont noe tonight dear will ask me to go out with him tomorrow or not....this guy blur blur de...haiz...呆头鹅...haha~or else...i go out with jacyln and meet kexin!!!i miss kexin la!!!!long time din get to see her edi...about 2months liao leh!!!

ok ok...stop writing now....tata~

happy happy!!

hey!!i am going to meet jacyln tomorrow!!!hehe^^
so happy!!!long time didn't get to see her edi...because she went up to kl and work...finally she's back!!woohoo~~~
actually i didn't do much things today...sleep until very late only wake up...nowadays ah...really like a pig lo...eat...play...sleep...haiz...

this coming thursday is valentine's day o...my dear and me de...hmmm....should be third valentine's day ba...haha~but dont think he remember...or he realized ba...lonely lonely....

oh ya!!!i want to do something la!!!


i want to finish reading my harry potter!!!!


i want to do a new year resolution!!!
hmmm...hopefully it's not too late yet...haha~


i want a new handphone!!!


i want to finish reading all my story books and comics!!

big hand holding small hand~

what i have done today?? hmmm.... i baked a cheese cake for my sis... hmmm... gambling.... to earn pocket money... ehem... because no working then no money to go out with my dear... haha~
oh ya!!!! chunzhen,kexin and chunling came to my house and visit me o!!! surprise right???? feel so touch as they came all the way to my place and visit me...and really salute kexin lo...dare to drive from ulu tiram to senai...this 3 girls really brave!!salute!!!!!
just now went to dear's place to pay a visit...found that his parents really cute!!!!
it's true o...
i did something stupid lo...dont know why i wasn't able to open that container no matter how...angry lo!!!how come dear can open it easily without using any strength de.....it's like such an easy job for him....grhhhh!!!!!!!!!!is it because my hand too small????never mind...i love dear holding my hand....using his big hand...haha~

hmmm...that's all for today ba...tata^^

wow!!!

i watch two movies o!!! in 5hours time...
kung fu dunk and cj7!!!!!
i fall in love with jay chou!!again...
he's sooooooooooooo.... handsome and cool!!!!!
haha~dear get jealous ba...because i din look at him during the movie....haha~
know what???i love watching people playing basketball o!!!they look so handsome and attractive o!!haha~i couldn't think of a word to express my feeling....but somehow i think you guys will understand how i feel ba...a woman looks most beautiful and attractive when they are serious...maybe this can be used on guys too....but my dear look handsome no matter how de...ehem...ok ok...shall stop here...haha~
i like kung fu dunk!!!you guys should go and watch!!really nice o!!haha~

happy cny!!

ok...i know i am late..today is the second day for cny edi...but..who cares?!haha~

happy cny o^^

i slept early on new year eve this year...coz i am really tired and exhausted...cant tahan liao la...that goh han jie ah...very bad lo...keep on telling me that we cant sleep early de wor...but...i didn't bother bout him...just go and sleep...haha~

yesterday...my siblings open a "stall"...haha~but i really dont feel like joining them lo...anyway...i did play for few games la...ganti mah...i dont know why...but i really dont feel like playing this year...even though i dont have to study edi...i dont need to go to school on monday...know what?last time when i still need to go to school...during that short short de cny holiday...i want to play o!!even though father scold me...but now..i am totally free liao....and i dont feel like playing liao wor...weird la me....maybe...this is human ba...

when you cant do something...you want to do it...when you have the opportunity to do it...you dont feel like doing it liao....haha~

today...wake up at 8++am...abang going back to melaka then kl...coz he's going overseas...

hanjie wake up liao...have my breakfast...waiting for his message...go shower...he reached my house liao...funny la he...haha~mother cook mi hun kuey for him...such a big bowl...even bigger than the big bowl at pelangi o...haha~and then we play...we chat....we look at the photo....we eat...we drink....haha~lame la me...

we brought fluffy out o!!the first time we bring him out and walk around....very cute la fluffy...at first....he dont want to go out de...when we bring him to the gate there...he just sat there and stop moving...it seems like we are going to sell him o...he keep on pulling back...haha~then we met a few doggie near the padang...they bark at fluffy...so fierce!!!hanjie chased them away and ask me to go with fluffy first...so brave o!!we bring fluffy back immediately...i get my big big t-shirt and track bottom for hanjie to change...and then off we go to basketball court...this is the first time i see him playing basketball o....he looks so cool!!!!and....handsome....*ehem*ok ok....i know i am too over edi....

we walk back home...he told me he post something at youtube...i was very curious....so....i ask him to show me....so cute!!!!wearing a cap o....haha~really love his voice....haha~

oh ya!!before he went home...i cook for him o!!the first time i cook for a guy o...haha~but i know....it doesn't taste nice....but he still finish it...salute him la!!but i think only he will fnish everything i cook ba...only he wont complain de...as long as the food is cook by me...no matter how...he will finish it de...am i right???

ok ok....have to stop right now...want to watch they kiss again episode8....tata~

happy chinese new year o!!

tired...

wake up early in the morning...dear also ba...haha~
after shower then have my breakfast...and then ask mum to bring me out...wanne go to dear's house to help him...oh ya!!with my curly hair!!*ehem*
ask dear to come out and fetch me...start doing the things that need to be done...at first...i dont think 1kg is enough for him lo...this piggy loves it so much...haha~
we peeled...we sliced...he fried...i packed...haha~
today ah...dear want to kill me!!!!nadiauhad!!!!
after finish cleaning the kitchen...went up lo...lying on the floor also can fall asleep lo...see la...how tired i am...haha~
by the way...he's kind enough to pull me up to his bed and let me sleep there...haha~
but dear very noisy lo...dont know what was he doing there...making lots of noise...cant let me have a good sleep wor...then have to help him put up the curtains somemore...
dear play games with me!!!very funny de games o!!hehe^^funny la both of us...dont know laugh for what also...haha~
dear's mum show me his photo when he was a baby...soooooooo cute!!!!!!!want to pinch his face la!!!haha~got NXXXX photo also o!!haha~
today...very tired.....but it's FUN!!!!
having dear by my side is the best o^^