today is the last day of 2008.and i am back in kl.lecture not start yet.and now i am in my college.online-ing.going back to my bro's house later.honestly,i don't know what can i do these few days before lecture starts.i should stay in the college and start studying.but i don't want to eat those malay spicy food now since i am going to suffer for this whole semester.

dear scolded me last night.and i know i really have to work harder to get excellent results.i promise.that's what i told myself before i enter university.and i really have to do it.in order to fulfilled my dreams.

chyeching!!jia you!!

new year new resolution.

be happy.

be healthy.

score for everything.

be more rajin.

be good girl.

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i miss home.i miss my two little twins.

I MISS GOH HAN JIE!!!!!

this is my 100th post.and i think this will be my last post for this year.lecture starts on 30th dec.and i am going back to kl on that day.that means i will skip my first day lecture of semester 2.haha~but according to my senior,normally there won't be any lecture on the first week of the new semester as almost all the lecturer not prepared yet.but know what?my actual plan is go back on 1st jan 2009 de...but somehow have to go back earlier than what i had expect.haiz.

finally i went to the new jusco at bukit indah.very big o!!but i still prefer tebrau jusco.because got cinema!!harris!!redbox!!wahaha~

but there's BIG APPLE at jusco bukit indah!!i think i fall in love with doughnuts!!oh my god~
and i heard that J.CO is in city square now!!!but somehow i seldom go cs....because the carpark fees very expensive lah!!!
craving for yummy doughnuts now...................

hmmm....i spend most of my time with hanjie during this semester break...why?because i won't get to meet him SO OFTEN when lecture starts again....and and and.....our common holiday is during year end holiday...which is now!!5weeks holiday is really too short for me....i want more holidays!!!

don't feel like going back to uni...i feel much more better when i am at home...i am still a mummy girl...i love being protect being care by my family and him...i don't want to go back....................

约你出去当然是要跟你约会啊！想你，所以想见到你，所以约你出去。如果要你跟我出去也需要理由的话，这样还算是在谈恋爱吗？男女朋友一起出去应该不需要什么特别的理由吧，就只是想见到对方而已。我只是不想每天都待在你家，感觉很压力，所以想出去外面走走，就只是这样而已。难道这样也需要理由吗？虽然说只要有你在我身边，不管我们在哪里都好，但是有时候我真的很怕待在你家。我只是想出去外面透透气...我不想整个假期都过着与世隔绝的生活...我想接触一些人群...不然回去之后我会害怕适应不了...会闹自闭...又把自己关起来...
我觉得真正不懂得怎么去爱一个人的是你，真正不适合谈恋爱的人是你...你从来不站在我的立场为我着想...你只想着你想做的事而已...每次都要到最后你才会去思考答应...又或者说是我逼你答应的...这样我也很累的...可不可以不要再以自我为中心了呢？别忘了你身边还有一个我...
爱一个人就要懂得珍惜他，而不是每次都要等到即将失去才后悔，才来挽救，别等到一切都太晚了才来说后悔的话，如果真的心死了，就算曾经多么相爱的两个人都不可能回到过去的...
爱一个人就应该包容接受他的一切。爱一个人是不会计较付出了多少就想要多少的回报。就只是想真心地对待彼此。真心地爱着彼此。选择一直待在你身边是因为我真的爱你。就算你一而再的伤了我的心，但是我还是选择傻傻地爱着你，只想当你身边的那个女孩。

less than 2weeks.i have to go back to school.
really don't feel like going back there.
i don't like these few days.or these few weeks.
things always happen between us.haiz.
should cherish these few weeks de.
should enjoy every single seconds being together.
cause wont be seeing him for long time after going back to school.wont get to meet him so often after my semester break.our holidays are totally different.the next holiday that we share together is the semester break next year.which is at the end of November 2009.haiz.

i really really don't want to quarrel with you.i really don't want to make you angry.but please.don't make me angry or feel sad too.i couldn't take it anymore.

彩菁希望和你在一起是开开心心的.彩菁不希望和你吵架或发生争执.彩菁希望你可以像姐妹一样了解我.彩菁希望你可以多在乎我一点点.
彩菁真的不想再和你发生任何不愉快了...

went for movie with dear this afternoon.
twilight!!!!!!!!

me throw my temper on him again.i know i am a bad girl.i am not a good or perfect girlfriend.he is always the one who get bully by me.i know.i am sorry.but he is a great guy.a great boyfriend.he always bear with me.he always tolerate on me.no matter what i did,no matter what i said,he always forgive me.i know i am super duper xing fu to have him by my side.i know.sorry for making you angry.sorry for making you feel frustrated.sorry for making you feel disappointed with me.sorry for everything i have done.

tired.need to sleep edi.good night.

i know i am a lazy bum.have been home for...hmmm....about 2weeks?and i never update here...at all!!!k..let me start now....

took my last paper which is fundamental economics on 18th November at dewan gemilang also known as DG.after that rush back to college to pack my things and wait for my sis-in-law to come and fetch me + help me clear my room so that i can check out.very ma fan la!!end of one semester then have to clear room and check out.....need to move all my things out leh!!at about 3.15pm then i leave the place that i have been stuck at for about 5 months!!
then reach my brother's place....packed my things and clothes...while watching a hong kong drama....raymond lam is so handsome!!!!!wahaha~

19th November
went to Genting Highland with dear and his family.kinda weird though.dear was so ke lian!!he slept on the floor that night.......we didn't play all those outdoor games at all.....sigh.....actually i wanne go and play de.....but somehow i think dear won't go with me....sigh.....if i am given another chance....i would definitely ask him to accompany me and play play play de....
dear...if you happen to read this...will you go with me and accompany me to play those outdoor games next time??indoor games too.....if there is a next time....

20th November
wake up early in the morning.play my psp beside dear....but he's still sleeping...haha~
walk around with dear while his parents and sister went into casino.
then it's time to leave Genting.fall asleep in the car.whenever dear is beside me, then for sure i will fall asleep de....reach kl town....agak-agak try to bring them to sunway....it was raining heavily...we stayed in a hotel near Sunway Pyramid...walked to that mian dui mian to have our dinner.then pyramid.then walk to dear's hostel.poor dear scratched his elbow....*heart pain*...

21th November
wow!!slept until 8++am!!
went to a malay shop to have brunch...the nasi and roti prata there quite yummy o!!
after that dear and me bring them to midvalley which both of us think it's very small and nothing to shop de....*ehem*...went to catch a movie that we wanted to watch when we was at Genting....Madagascar!!!but i feel so bad to make his parents and sis wait for us at foodcourt as they want to go back to sunway earlier....
about 4pm....went to dear's hostel to get his things...ta pao our dinner....then it's time to go home...


and i am in jb since that day!!!!


have been going out lepak-ing most of the time.
met my friends.
met my dear.
went to redbox with jacyln and juivy last wednesday.and we had sushi for lunch!!!woohoo~
went to neway with jacyln,eehsin,yuekling,kexin and siying on tuesday.and and and we had our lunch at season!!!!chicken baked rice!!!yummy~
met kexin for a while at pelangi yesterday.i should find a time to meet her....long time never talk to her edi...
accompany dear to buy his Xbox360....honestly...i don't like him buying new things....because he will keep on playing and forget about me....haiz...
went to dear's place....went to istana garden...
i love him holding my hand tight tight when we run under the rain....hehe^^

went shopping for the past few days too!!bought myself some clothes and pants and shorts...me fall in love with those formal button shirt and blouse....haha~

oh ya!!the first time i went to Manhattan fish market...the food was nice and yummy....but i don't think i will go there for second time....because i can't finish all the food and it's wasted leh!!!very expensive you know....

actually i have many plans during this semester break de...
i wanne watch all the dramas that i downloaded....
i wanne read all my story books and comics....
i wanne study for my next semester in advanced...
i wanne meet all my old old friends....both from primary and secondary schools....
i wanne meet my dear more often....cause i wont get to see him after i go back to kl end of this month...he's having his semester break until March next year....
i wanne......
lots of things that i wanne do lah!!!!!!
can't list out everything lah....

hmmm.....until here for now.....i need to sleep edi....feel so so sleepy now......good night^^

just came back from kl.with dear.went to genting and kl with his family.lots of things to blog.but i am not in the mood to blog now.wanne sleep edi.

oh ya!!my 1st year 1st semester officially end.

and now i am back home!!!

hehe^^

miss him...

kinda miss him right now.he didn't look for me since that day.three days already.i know he's angry with me.since the day we came back together.i know i shouldn't said those words.but i just couldn't control myself.in my opinion,guys should treat their girls nice,help them do everything,treat them like their only princess,handle everything by themselves.etc.every guy should treat his girlfriend as their only princess.maybe i am too yi xiang qing yuan...to think like this...
but what he said that day really hurt me....deep in my heart...i can't help it but feel so hurt...it does make me think a lot....maybe we are in two different world now....totally different world...it seems like we are getting further and further from each other...i can feel the gap between us when we are together...i feel sad....really really sad...and hurt...2years and 4months being together....or i shall say more than 2years and 4months...what happen to us now???
it seems like there is an invisible wall that separate us into two different world...what can i do now??can someone out there tell me what can i do now???i really don't want to lose him...i know how important he is to me...
i know i should took the initiative to call him....but i just couldn't do it...i don't want to "admit" that it is my fault...all because of mian zi...but why i am always the one who took the initiative no matter i am the one in fault or him?!
but i know if i didn't do anything,he won't do anything too.and i can see the consequences....things will become worse....
by the way,i shouldn't worry about this things now...still got one more paper to go before my semester break....i come back home because i want to study and no need to worry about other things.but why am i worry about my relationship thingy now??this shouldn't happen right now!!i should focus in my study!!econs!!

GAN CHYE CHING!!!go and study la!!!don't think of all these thingy anymore!!think so much also no use....he won't care about you de...












i couldn't believe that i am crying right now...because of him....i miss him....

i am worried.
my bao bei is sick.
he used to play with me everyday.
he used to bully me everyday.
but now he got no energy to do these things edi.
hopefully he will get better when he wake up tomorrow.
jia you!!

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came back home for two days edi.
din really get to study.
was so busy for the past few days.
went for my last injection yesterday.
very pain lo!!!
now my hand there red red liao....
pain pain.....

and i cut my hair!!!!!
hehe^^
quite short if compare to last time....
haha~

hmmm.....not much to update la...
need to study edi....
my last subject....
econs~~

tata~

I AM NOT A PERFECT GIRL

down.
i just wanne be myself.
the original me.
not the one in your imagination.
i am just a normal girl.
i am not perfect.
dont force me to do something that i dont want to do.
i dont think i did anything wrong.
if you cant bear with me
please leave me alone.

hubungan etnik is over~~
hooray~

total 50questions and there are 41 questions from past year...even though there are so many questions from past year...but we dont know the correct answer for some of the questions...so i just tembak lo...haha~but know what??for this subject,if we get the correct answer,we will get 1% whereas if we get wrong answer then will deduct 1%...and i am so so brave!!i tembak some answer lo!!the chances is 50%/50% de o!!haha~

two more papers to go...then is the end of my year 1 semester 1....time flies...

after tomorrow EST paper,then i am going back home if nothing goes wrong...

shall start planning my year 1 semester 2 de timetable liao...shouldn't go on like this anymore...must be more rajin...then only can get good results...and i really need to go for exercise!!publicity daddy said he go for exercise such as jogging,cycling,basketball and etc every evening...next sem will go with him ba...haha~and ask my com-mate go along too^^
and i must study and do revision everyday...do more exercise for my maths subject...
and i want to learn french!!

dont know what to do now...shall take a nap....feel so tired now...a bit headache too...

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slept for 2hours just now!!!haha~
exam almost finish le...left 2subjects...
feel so lost...dont noe wat to do edi....

i think i am going to keep my things...need to clear my room so that i can check out on 18 nov...but i have so many things in my room!!!dont know where to start leh.......
anyone out there wanne help me????

know what???
dear was so nice yesterday!!!
he bought dinner for me o!!
all the way from his place to my college!!!
was so so touched!!
and i really miss him so so much....
feet so happy when i get to see him..

studying for hubungan etnik now...
few of my seniors told me to study past year then enough edi...
so bad ha....
does it mean that no need to study textbook anymore?
haha~
anyway...i think i can de!!
should be able to finish up all the chapters and past year before i go for exam at 12pm at DG tomorrow....

i wanne meet up with dear tomorrow after exam...
dont know whether he agrees or not....

**back to study mode**

what i have done last night???
"peeping" other people's room from my room.
very bad right?
but it's fun!!!haha~
then played games for about 1 hour.
then my roommie warned me to start study for my coming exam.
ha~

oh ya!!we had pizza for our dinner last night!!!
it's cool!!!
next time we go for steamboat k??
and our trip to "our" hometown~
and many other events upcoming~
hehe^^

dear was so enjoy-ing yesterday right after his last paper.
went out with his friends.
watch movie somemore.
didn't bring me along.so bad!!

but i had great talk with him over the phone last night.
crap a lot too^^
i miss those old days when we can talk over the phone every night before we went to our dreamland.
i miss those old days when we can meet up so often.
i miss those old days when i get to see you everyday.
i miss you...
waiting for the coming sem break.
but my sem break until 29th Dec only...
whereas his sem break until 1st March next year!!!!

btw...today's paper consider ok...hopefully my assignment and simulasi wont get low low marks...then should be able to score A for this paper liao...haha~
but i am worried about monday's hubungan etnik paper la....
marks will be deducted if i choose the wrong answer wei...
funny right???

waiting for my lunch now...roommie went to ta pao...
using motorcycle!!!
note that my rommie is a girl!!
cool right????

*when i come to ukm only i know that many people using motorcycle to go school de...this is what i had never seen in jb lo...*.

shall start study for hubungan etnik now...
wish me luck ya~
tata~

study until 3am yesterday.i mean this morning.*ehem*
finally finished my pp.but i dont know how much i remember.so so many theory need to remember.and so so many people's name need to remember.gosh.

now is hubungan etnik's time.
will study hubungan etnik until dinner time.
then go back to pp again.
why?
because tomorrow 10.30am is pp exam.
it cost 30%.

whereas hubungan etnik cost 60% for final exam.
and and and
EST--very familiar right?
English for Science and Technology
it cost 45% for final exam.

ok ok....i am hungry now....going down to get lunch for my tummy soon.....

oh ya!!
wanne wish my friends

kim and weiren

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

welcome to 20~

haha~
btw...i dont think both of you will read this lo...

have been study-ing for the whole day edi.
kinda go crazy edi.
stupid pp.
why do i need to study all those stupid thingy?
really dont see the point for me to study this subject.
30% for final exam.
another 70% from simulasi,assignment and attendance.
why i need to study so hard for this stupid subject??

another thing is hubungan etnik.
i think that one better than this ba.
at least got some "story"...
but most probably when i start reading it,i will complaint again.
haha~

btw,few more days to go.
then can get to eat nice and good food.

and tomorrow is the last paper for dear.
happy for him.
but now i hate him.
he rather watch movie but dont want to talk to me.
bad bad goh han jie!!

jia you!!
few more days to go...

**wondering what i need to bring back home next tuesday??**

to my beloved Er-Sao~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
hope you did enjoy today to the fullest o^^
miss you all so so much!!

not enough time!!!2hours and 30minutes not enough for me to complete 5 c++ questions!!oh gosh...
btw....i think i am not the only one got not enough time....many people didn't get to do question5...
today's paper still ok...at least better than calculus yesterday....

can relax for few hours edi...at least my major subject is over edi....now still left with persatuan pelajar, hubungan etnik,EST and econs...
econs still ok...got 1week to study...
later shall study hubungan etnik...then tomorrow study pp....
get the answer for past year paper...
study past year paper is very important for hubungan etnik o!!

EST...dont noe wat to study also...just read the exercise that we did before lo...

waiting for next tuesday to come....
why??
because....
i can go home on that day!!!
hooray~~
cant wait for the time to go home edi...
hehe^^

and next tuesday i will be able to meet my dear^^
after such a long time...
finally get to see him~
hooray~~

I MISS HOME!!

I MISS HOME!!

i wanne go home!!

count down to next tuesday...

btw....just finished one paper....chemistry.....consider ok ba...
but i am worried about the next paper....calculus....i am lousy at proving.....sure very cham de lo...
and tomorrow is c++.....
add oil!!chyeching!!


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calculus died until cham cham edi.....
but it looks like everyone same as me....
hopefully i wont failed this subject.....
pray hard hard.....

P-R-A-Y!!!!!

back to stupid ukm
dont want to come back de
feel like crying
feel so so bad now
need someone to talk to
where are you?

today is the last day of october.
3days more then will be my final exam.
honestly i am not in the mood to study.
kinda fed up with those thick thick books.
btw...i am study-ing calculus.
which is one of the scary subject.
shall work hard on this subject though.

gambateh!!!chyeching!!

hmmm....one good news....dear came back edi!!
that means we are not that far edi....not 300++ km edi!!
but i wont get to meet him though...
i am going back to kl this sunday...
sigh...

dear....i miss you so much......

i need hugs.....

someone told me i must leave a comment for him when i visit his bloggie.
because he said seldom got people read his bloggie.
that makes his not to update so often.
and now i am thinking why am i so lazy to update my bloggie...
is it because nobody leave message or comment for me?
maybe yes....
if you happen to read my bloggie....and i am sure you know who you are....do leave me a comment and let me know you are here....k?as i promise....i will flood your teh tarik corner as often as possible...hehe^^

i got into a conclusion yesterday.
i will become fatter and fatter when i am at home.my mouth just cannot stop doing job.hehe^^ whenever i am hungry or whatever,there are people getting food for me....and that makes me growing fatter and fatter,,,,which is not a good sign....
i need to keep fit!!!i need exercise!!!but i am a lazy bum....sigh....
no more nice nice clothes for me....only nice nice food....
fatty chyeching!!
you are growing fatter and fatter edi!!!!
stop eating so so much la!!

i don't know why i need to study so so many subjects in one semester....total got 7 subjects o!!funny la wei...dear only need to study 4subjects for 1semester....and i need 120credit hours in order to graduate!!oh my god~~there are 22credit hours for this semester....and at least 25credit hours for the next semester....which means i will getting busier and busier next semester!!!
i think this is what a local university is...or i shall said....because i am in UKM--National University of Malaysia~~the most kiasu local uni??haha~

my two little twins went out already....it is so so quiet at home now....i miss them!!faster come back k...

that's all for now...time to go back for my studies....c++ pointer here i come!!wait for me!!

at home now.
feel so tired.
body aching here and there.
haiz.
how i hope that my dear is here with me now...
waiting for the coming holiday....
waiting for the end of final exam...
only i will be able to see my dear....
after a long long 1month 2++weeks.....

lalala~

came back fizis class.only 1 hour lecture today.but it makes me wake up at 7++am.stupid right?!
next week is the last week for lecture of semester 1.then here it comes my final exam.

time flies.still remember when i just came to ukm.and now it is almost the end of my first semester.

going back home next thursday.for study break.
do not want to stay here.
no food.only spicy food.no comfortable bed.no water heater.
the only good thing is the weather.very cool.or shall i say windy?haha~

i am not in the mood to study right now.that is why i am blogging right now.there are so many things need to be settle before i go home.yet i am not in the mood to do anything now.

really scared if i cannot get at least B.

uni life is fun.but when it came to studies,it would be very stress.
who keep on saying that after form6,when you get into uni,will be very very relax ah?it is totally bluffing lo!!penipu!!it is getting tougher and tougher...
fine....i should stop complaining and concentrate in my studies now.

econs,c++,calculus here i come!!!!

looking forward to the coming thursday~
it is time to go home~
home sweet home~

stresssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i feel so stress now.
lots of assignment to be complete...presentations...and finals coming soon...just got my real timetable this morning...change again...it's different from what i sahkan last time...exam starts on 4 november...tuesday...ends on 18 november...tuesday too....2.30pm...
really feel so so stress now....dont know what to study also....haiz...tones of books and notes right in front of me...yet i dont know where to start from...haiz haiz haiz...
should go and find more past year paper la...hehe^^
tomorrow,friday and saturday will be real busy!!persembahan pentas PTUKM...
busy + tired + stress + etc...

where is my dear GohHanJie?i need a hug from you...to release my stress.......hopefully it helps......but unfortunately you are not here............

i miss home!

back to college edi.felt so sad when i saw my family left me just now.almost burst out crying.i wanne go home!!!i dont want to stay here!!!i know i am still a mummy girl.....
dear dont want to talk to me edi...i make him angry again...
feels so so sad now...
dont have the mood to study...
anyone can talk to me now???

i miss home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

going back to kl in 5hours time.really dont feel like going back there.sigh.
i think it's going to rain soon.poor little girl need to take bus and go there.stupid boyfriend.hopefully wont get drench.

home sweet home

raya holidays going to end soon.and i am going back to kl tomorrow evening.but will be back to hostel on sunday i think.cant relax anymore.another 3weeks of lectures and 1week of study break then will be my final.that 3weeks of lectures will be really busy.presentation.quiz.assignment.simulasi.duty.etc.oh ya!i forget the "s" behind each task.sigh.hopefully i can survive through these period.no more dating.no more fooling around.no more relax-ing.nothing but concentrate in my study during these period.then that will be the end of 1st sem of my 1st year in uni.
what i did during this raya holidays?honestly i din study much.most of the time i was playing around.regret-ing.haiz.
i shall stop now.need to pack my things for tomorrow.and continue study!!

**wondering anyone read my bloggie?if you happen to pass by,do leave me a message k....let me know who has been here and really care about me...**

i miss my 10++ years friends

kinda miss them so so much.now.miss those days we get to go out together.gathering.really miss those time so so much.my pri sch friends.hopefully we can meet up at the end of this year.when everyone come back here.our hometown.
miss you guys so so much!!

din really study much today.later must concentrate ya.must finish my econs.at least this chapter.
dear tipu me.
oh ya!i will be at jb until this saturday.evening time only go back to kl.btw,i know nobody cares whether i am here or not.sigh.
back to study mode.gambateh o^^

time to study

eh...i really need to concentrate in my studies edi lah...have been slacking for the past few days...final is coming real soon...and all my stupid sch stuff that need to be settle...and i should not sit in front of this stupid computer anymore...unless i am doing my homework....and what am i doing now??blogging!!
S-T-O-P!!
go and study and buried myself in tones of books!!
N-O-W!!!

1. How old are you?-20

1. How old are you?-20

2. Are you single?-nope

3. In what age do you think you’ll get married?-25

4. Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now?-hopefully yes gua

5. If not, who do you want to marry?-stay single for the rest of my life...haha~

6. Do you want a garden/beach wedding, or the traditional church wedding?- garden/beach wedding would be a memorable one...

8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?-hmmm....i am a bit greedy...can we travel around the whole world for our honeymoon?or else....a place near the beach where we can watch sunrise and sunset together would be nice enough...

9. How many guests do you think you’ll invite?-hmmm....my family...his family...all our close friends...that is more than enough...our wedding should be a simple one...

10. Do you want an extravagant or a simple wedding?-as i mention above...a simple one will do...

11. Do you want the traditional vows or something you’d make up on your own?-traditional vows i think...

12. How many layers of cake do you want to have?-one....dont want creamy creamy de...

13. When do you want to get married, evening or morning?-morning

14. You’d rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?-hmmm....no idea...but i think indoor should be better ba?

15. Do you like a grand entrance for your groom?-hmmm...maybe ba...

17. Name the song/tune you’d like played at your wedding.- all the songs he compose for me...hehe^^

18. Are you a morning person or a night person?-hmmm...depends on my mood...

19. Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?- in between these two

20. What age do you want to get married?-25

21. Describe your ideal husband.-him

22. Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?-hmmm...no idea...

23. Champagne or red wine?-red wine

24. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?-right after wedding

25. Money or household items?-both...i know i am greedy...

26. Who will pay for the bills?-we will share together

27. Are you ready for married life?-not really....i am still a student....

28. Will you always be true to your wife/husband?- yup

29. How many kids do you want?-hmmm....2girls 2boys..?


hmmm.....i really got nothing better to do now ba....haiz...i miss him!!i miss him!!!where are you???come to me now plz...

tired

just got back from kl yesterday night.with him.
the first time both of us sat on the train.
feel so good whenever he is with me.


dear,i am sorry for what i did for the past few weeks.do forgive me k?i miss you so much.right now.hope that you are by my side.right now too.i need you.do not leave me alone k?
dear,i love you.so so much...

busy holiday

oh my god!!!
i just found out that i got lots of things to do during this short holiday!!
calculus tutorial....that makes me headache lo...16 questions leh!!
and there is a quiz on function for computer programming on 14th oct...
and there is a presentation for hubungan etnik right after raya holiday...
and there is a quiz for econs on the first day of school...
and there is a presentation for pp...
and there is simulasi which i dont know what is that after raya holiday...
and there is EST presentation...
OH MY GOD!!!!!!!
i need more time...30hours or more per day...
cant slack anymore....
buck up!!!chyeching!!!

dear,you will stay by my side and go through all these things with me de...am i right?

i am bored.
i am sad.

random

went out to tebrau jusco this afternoon.
it has been such a long time since the last time i went there.
i think is before i go to UKM.

oh ya!!
i got a new bag!!
thx to my bro n sis-in-law!!
hehe^^

nothing much to update actually...
just a random post...
because i am too free edi..

oh ya!!
i gain weight i think...
eat quite a lot these few days...
at least eat more than what i ate when i am in uni...

hmmm...
shall stop now...
good night^^

i miss him

seriously...i hope that i am in the same uni with him...now...
i really hope that he is beside me all the time when i need someone to be there for me...
but whenever i feel tired + exhausted + etc...
he is not there for me...
so sad right...?
i know he has his problem and lots of things to do...he has to strive hard for his studies...
that's why i seldom kacau him since uni life starts...
he told me that he might not have much time for me for the coming 4 years...
he might neglect me a lot...
i can understand...truly understand...
but somehow...i am a girl....more over....i am his girlfriend...
i need his care....i need him whenever i am facing problems...he is the one i can rely on...
but he is always not here with me....
worst of all...
he might not be here with me during my convo 3years later...
haiz...

i realize something...
since we go up there...
we will end up quarrel everytime we met...
maybe it is my fault...
sorry...
maybe i really changed a lot...
always throw my temper on you...
get angry easily...
sorry...

honestly...
i regret for not going there with you...
why don't you drag me along...?
i thought you won't want your girl to be in the same uni as you...

i am always the most stupid one...
making the wrong choice...
twice edi...

i miss those days when you send me to school....
i miss those days when you pick me up after school...
i miss those days when i get to see you so often....
i miss those days when we can go dating so often...
i miss those days when we are always together....

i really miss those days so so much...

now
i am at home
now
you are at sunway

300+ km distance

and i miss you so so much




fine...i know i shouldn't sit in front of computer anymore....i know i need to study everything during these "3" weeks holiday...final is coming...i really need to study...i want to get A...i want to get good results...
well....calculus,economics,computer programming,chemistry are waiting for me...


last but not least...
i miss him.

I LOVE PTUKM!!

yup...you din see wrongly...
i fall in love with PTUKM!!

hmmm....that's all for now...i need to sleep now...tomorrow morning got class...5hours somemore...

tata~
good night^^

更新

这里已经生了很多很多杂草了
哈哈

为什么我现在那么有空能够更新这里呢？
因为
我是笨蛋
这么长的周末我竟然留在宿舍没有回家
是不是很笨？
生气啦！！
我要回家！！我要回家！！
而且宿舍很恐怖
我不想待在这里啦...
呜...

*********************************************************

话说2008年6月29日
我搬进了国大第一宿舍村kolej dato' onn,UKM
从那天开始我就是大学生了
也是那一天开始了我的大学生活
第一个星期真的不是人过的生活
每天凌晨2点才睡早上5点就要醒了
而且忙忙碌碌的`
总是在赶场
有好多好多事情要做
忘了说
这个星期我们称它为MMP--Minggu Mesra Pelajar
如果我没记错的话
其实就是所谓的orientation week啦
哈哈
每天都在忙什么呢？
宿舍的活动
去fac报到注册
听讲座
去DECTAR
Malam Kebudayaan
Debate
马来西亚第一位太空人来我学校（因为他是国大毕业生嘛）
还有很多
不过我都忘得七七八八了

第二个星期就开始上课了啊
才发现我们还有第二轮的orientation
fac的orientation
七月的每个星期五在DKG126
不过也因为这样而认识了更多course mate

其实每天的流程都差不多一样
起身上课回宿舍读书活动睡觉

我觉得我都快变成超人了
白天要上课
晚上宿舍或学会之类的都有活动或开会
而且都是很晚很晚的那种
试过凌晨1点收到短讯被叫去开会吗？
来了这里我就尝到了
哈哈
总觉得上了大学的人晚上都不睡觉的
就好比我隔壁宿舍啊
cafe开到凌晨3点都还有人的哦
强吧？
哈哈

在大学
参与的活动太多也不见得是件好事
会很忙
没有自己私人的时间
有点后悔为什么自己要参那么多东东
不过现在好一点了
没刚开始的时候那么忙了

说说宿舍吧
我住3楼最后一间
洗澡什么都很方便
但是不好的就是如果厕所淹水之类的我的房间就糟糕了
而且感觉上天花板很容易让人入侵
衣橱都没得锁
还要我自己动手装锁呢
不过这是违法的
会被saman的哦
哈哈
不过呢
跟别的宿舍比起来
我这间房还蛮大的
而且能够上网
还有隔壁宿舍的palapes保护
算很不错了
虽然说还是有那么一点不安全
尤其是最近听到那么多case
更加恐怖了
原本明年还是想住宿舍的
方便嘛
但是现在开始犹豫了
只是住外面也不见得很安全啊
嗨
宿舍的活动真的很烦人
每次都说是compulsory的
讨厌的

教授和上课嘛
我不知道是不是真的只有我这个pusat pengajian(简称PP,我的是Pusat Pengajian Sains Matematik,简称PPSM)有华人教授
他教我computer programming
上他的课很刺激哦
随时都有可能有pop quiz
哈哈
剩下的6个unit都是马来人教
只有一个女的教授教我
calculus
他还算不错
有得商量
肯用英文上课
虽然还是参杂了一些马来文
还有上什么呢？
econs(microecons),Fizis(Physics + Chemistry),Hubungan Etnik,Persatuan Pelajar,EST
总共7科
22个学分
我读3年竟然需要120的学分才能毕业哦

柔华--柔佛州的华人
不知道要说什么
因为没有去迎新活动
可是接下来的活动应该会多参与吧
因为它让我有亲切感
有家的感觉

PPSM
我有一个direct senior
健文
很可爱
哈哈
平常都没什么找他
有点过意不去
有机会要常常烦他
哈哈
fac night那天还看到了我的direct的direct
还有direct的direct的direct
4代同堂
哈哈
很奇怪哦
fac night我竟然被选为MC
从来都没做过这个的
很新鲜
不过感觉上那天我辜负了senior的期望
抱歉

对了
我开学差不多两个月了
但是感觉上好像昨天才刚开学
但是
我开始考试了哦！
mid-term test哦
恐怖
不过econs真的不是盖的哦
基本上每一科都要好好努力了
要加油！！
不能再像form6那样了

两个月
我回家3次
周末都不在宿舍
这还是我第一次周末待在宿舍哦
而且第一次就是那么长的周末
星期5就没课了
到星期2下午才有课
嗨

我很勇敢哦
第一次回家的时候是自己去pudu的哦
自己一个人回哦
然后第二次是哥哥载
第三次是跟dear一起回

dear现在在monash
说实在的
我有点后悔为什么要留在这里
坦白说
这里的素质并不好
而且很多都用马来文教
教授也经常翘课
不然就随便带过
惨啊
没办法了
都已经不能回头了
惟有继续走下去了

dear很拼
每天都读书读书
有时候会觉得他忽略我
很讨厌他的咯
有时候真的完全不理我的
讨厌
不过我明白为什么它这么拼
只是偶尔还是会埋怨

一个人出来读书
住宿舍
什么都要靠自己
坦白说
对我而言
我很不习惯
刚开始的时候我还哭哦
不过也只有dear知道
不敢让家人知道
怕他们担心
现在想想
还是会想哭
才发现
原来我那么想家
真的好想回家
好想待在家里
i am still a mummy girl
i miss home

好啦好啦
我知道我应该学着长大
应该学着独立的
我都知道

***********************************************************

下星期日9月7日我要跟柔华的去port dickson哦
期待
希望会很好玩
9月21&22日跟PPSM的去genting
希望可以跟course mate更了解
加油哦！彩菁！
感觉上还有很多活动
但是我忘了
不过不要紧
到时再看咯
哈哈

我期待放假
因为我要回家

现在一个人待在宿舍觉得很孤单
好恐怖
好希望dear在我身边...
但是他都不理我...
嗨

好了
我好像写了好长好长的一篇
该停了
午餐还没吃呢
不过下去看到那些马来餐也是没胃口的
嗨
该读书了
tata~

彩菁！
加油哦！
一定要让自己做到最好！
不能再让自己后悔了！

pesta konvo of UKM~

today is the day!!pesta konvo of UKM!!
yesterday was the rehearsal....it was so cool!!!if you guys have the chance,must come and watch o!!i can say that you wont regret for coming!!haha~
i am going to be a busy woman....really got lots of activities...feel so tired...sometimes even think of giving up...because really tired...everyday stay awake until 2/3am...then 7am wake up edi...this is really not my lifestyle!!!still cant adapt to it lo...
timbalan S/U...mc...pt protokol...CCC...aiyo...headache la...dont know i come to uni for what de...study or for all these activities????
btw....my seniors all very good de o!!!love them so much!!!especially pt and college seniors!!!!most of them very happening de o!!and very fun to be!!haha~
going for class soon...shall stop writing now...will update more when i really have time...still remember my long long post?haha....k la...tata~

ps:what should i wear for fac night??

finally!!

okok...i know i had not been updating since i came to UKM...know why??because the broadband here is so teruk!!but...that was last time...and now i can online in my room edi!!woohoo~~feel so happy!!
but...i cant sign in msn...i dont noe why...but!!!i can use skype!!!so...ADD ME IN SKYPE!!!
blurgirl_117
add me o!!!

hmmm....i dont noe where to start with my long long story...it has been a month since i came to UKM...and really lots of things happen...but i cant type it out now...noe why?coz it's 1.16am now!!i need to sleep edi!!but yet i havent finish my homework!!!arghhh~~~

hmmm...shall update when i am free...but it seems like i dont have my own private time leh...not even for my dear...haiz...
btw..i really need to do my homework now...so....good night^^

UKM

hmmm...ya....i am in UKM now...
finally a undergraduate...
actually i have lots of things to update...but...connection here not stable la...haiz...
btw...i miss home!!!i miss mr.goh han jie!!i miss my friends too!!!!
hope to see you all soon!!!!!

redang!!!

woohoo~~
going to redang with my friends tomorrow night time!!!
happy happy~
but i am disappointed dear wont go with me....haiz...

happy^^

i am tired but i feel so happy
hehe^^

met my dear today
gave him the "present"
dont know whether he like it or not
hopefully he does

hmmm
will be going out with jacyln tomorrow
to buy something for our redang trip
sigh
esther couldn't go with us
last minute lo
haiz
dont noe who else wanne go with us
really have no idea who can go lo

hmmm
never mind
we shall enjoy our trip
have fun!!!!
lots of fun!!!!
with jacyln,eehsin,juivy
hehe^^

looking forward to this coming monday
woohoo~

dear is coming back!!hooray~feel so glad that i survive for the past few days...without him by my side...haha~

honestly...
i miss him!!!

tomorrow is chunzhen and fungkai de birthday....i know they wont read this...but i still wanne wish them
happy birthday!!!

today is the last day of May...so fast...
honestly,i really have no idea what i have done lo...cant remember...
tomorrow is june edi...most probably the last month for me to stay at home...but most of the time i wont be at home ba...my redang trip...and some other stuff that need to settle...haiz...
feel so tired lo...
i dont want to grow up anymore la...i want to be a little girl...just a little girl without worries...
chyeching,jia you!!do your best for your future!!

hmmm....just a random post la...dont noe what to say...haiz...

i miss my dear!!!

dear going to redang in 1hour time...haiz...he wont be here for 4 or 5days ba...haiz...sien...
lonely~lonely~
dear...i miss you so much!!!
anyway...must enjoy yourself o...take more photo o!!show me when you come back o...next time we go together o...we go pulau perhentian...hehe^^dont leave me alone here...really miss you...

i miss my girlfriends!!

was watching the "present" that jacyln,eehsin,kexin gave me during my 19th birthday.
still remember i was crying when i watch it for the first time.
feel so touch when i saw what they wrote,the picture they put in.
and now when i watch it again,lots of memory la.
i din cry o!!hehe^^
even though form6 is a tough and long journey,but i wish i could go through it again,so that i can have more time to spend with my dearest friends.
i really miss those time we spend together.

i miss you all so so much!!!!!!!!

原来我是那么的害怕
原来我还没做好心理准备去面对即将来临的大学生活
原来我是那么的害怕独自一个人
原来我还是希望有朋友陪在身边的感觉
原来我一直都活在过去的回忆里

什么时候开始我变得那么害怕陌生环境
什么时候开始我不敢去接触新朋友
什么时候开始我变得那么胆小

也许
过去的中学生活
我都是被保护的
身边都是我熟悉的朋友
一直都不需要去面对新的环境
就算是中六也好
身边也有一群朋友陪着我
而这一次
我必须独自去面对新的环境新的生活
身边少了你们
我会不习惯
我会害怕
但是我知道这一次
分离是肯定的
我真的必须自己独自去面对未来的生活了
我真的很怕
我还没准备好

mentally and physically not prepared yet

现在觉得好无助
我真的需要有人陪着我去面对新生活
我需要有人让我知道我不是一个人去面对新生活的

曾经有个人说
他担心我
这样的我怎么一个人生活
这样的我怎么能够适应宿舍生活
什么事都只能靠自己
我记得我告诉他
别小看我
我一定可以的
但是现在我怀疑了
我真的可以吗？

kinda settle edi ba.my problems.
but another problem is rising.

haiz.

can i cry?
am i strong enough to overcome this obstacle?

chyeching!!jia you!!
no matter what,you must be strong!!

yup...i believe i can.

无奈

很难得我用华文吧
嗨

我不想等本地大学了吗
新大呢
我真的不想吗

并不是啊

monash是我最后的选择

如果
我真的这么幸运
这种烂成绩也能被新大入取
我去！
但是
现在没消没息
我还能怎样
原本的信心都被磨光了

本地呢
更不用想了吧
3.17而已
又不是4.0
可以拿到什么科系
以后要做什么

我不喜欢这些不确定

原本以前的计划是
中五毕业
上中六
然后进本地大学
我一直都很希望进本地大学的
但是现在这种不能确定未来的状况
我还能坚持要进本地大学吗
根本就不知道会被分去哪里
如果拿到sains pertanian还是什么的
我怎么可能会去呢

但是我还是在期待本地大学能够给我一个好的选择
只要能够接受的
我还是会去本地大学的
只是现在
不要逼我了

我已经自己想了很多想了很久考虑了很多因素
才会这样决定的
我已经不是个小孩子了
我知道自己在做什么
这是我的未来
我必须确保它是最好的
我不希望以后会后悔还是什么

拿到成绩之后
申请大学
不管什么事
我都是自己去做
自己去解决
我真的不想麻烦别人
我觉得我自己可以解决的
钱的问题
也一样

我现在需要的
是支持
是鼓励
是信任
而不是质疑
而不是责备

我的未来
我想自己决定

kinda settle edi ba.
kinda decide where to go edi ba.
4years of uni life is waiting for me.
everything have to start all over again.
new friends.
new environment.
everything new.
jia you!!

haiz.my redang trip.haiz.
shall change it to Singapore trip ba.was so disappointed when i heard from her just now.i was so excited at the beginning.but now.i am totally down.dont really have the mood to go to the beach liao.haiz.
dear,you must enjoy your trip for me o.since i might not be able to go there edi.haiz.take more photos o!!show me everything at redang o!!
i really wanne go for holiday la.but how come my plan never come true de.always have some problem occur de.haiz.sad sial.
i hate this month.i hate june too.lots of things happen.i want my happy happy days come back to me.i dont want to live in dilemma.i dont want to live in uncertain.i dont want!!
someone save me please.
dear,where are you?come to me now.i need you.

i tot our redang trip is settle down edi.but just now kim called me and told me that she cant make it on that week.how?what am i going to do?i book the room edi leh...haiz...somemore is family package de...at least 5people...now she cant go...left us 4people only leh...haiz...really dont noe what to do now...

anyway...went out with dear...went for steamboat o!!my first time leh!!we really ate a lot lo!!!so scary...i think it's very rare lo...went out until so late...but i love it!!hehe^^

i dont know what to say now...very complicated la...haiz...today is full of up and down...really tough to type out everything..somemore i am not in the mood to blog...haiz...

sigh

why am i in the dilemma now...how come like this de wor...i know what i want...but that cost a lot leh...

let me count ha....

MMU-Accounting
-registration fees--RM1853
-RM317.5 per credit hour
-total credit hour--161
-total tuition fees-RM51117.5
-hostel-RM202/month
-deposit&prepayment-RM500
-total cost for hostel-RM10196
-living cost-RM500-1000/month

--Total--RM109313.5[+-]

Monash--business&commerce/communication
-general fees--RM250
-tuition fees/semester-RM13460
-total semester-8
-total tuition fees--RM107680
-hostel-RM400/month
-deposit&processing fees-RM1030
-total cost for hostel-RM19230
-living cost-RM500-1000/month

--Total--RM163160[+-]

that's a lot...RM50000 leh...

hmmm.....really fan2 la....aiyo...hope that i can throw all these things away and run to my little dreamland...hide myself there and never come out...just stay there...haiz...
i shall go and sleep now...extremely tired now...

stupid MMU.
why you offer me my first choice?!
cyberjaya accounting.
make me even more hesitated than yesterday.

stupid!stupid!stupid!!!!!

ishhhhhh........what should i choose now?of course MMU will be cheaper than monash...but honestly i still prefer monash leh...last time i never think of MMU at all de leh...but MMU de accounting is recognize by MIA leh...which is very good...but monash de...i might have the chance to go for student exchange program if i work hard enough...arghhhhhhh................really tough to make a decision lo...why like this de.....ishhhhhh................

i got the offer letter from monash.
i was very eager to get the offer letter from monash before this.
but now
i got it already.
i am hesitated.
i dont know whether i should accept it or not.
i thought i will be very happy if monash accept me.
but now
i dont know how i feel now.
it's kinda rojak feeling now.
shall i?or shall i not?

i have to admit that last time i wanted to go to the same uni with my dear.or i shall say i want to meet my prince in uni.but now.i met my prince edi.and most probably he is going there too.and now i am hesitated.i cant imagine he is in the same uni as me.i want him by my side all the time.but at the same time,i dont want him by my side.
the course that monash offer me really caught my attention lo.really make me wanne go lo.
how?what am i going to do?the same old problem that i am facing 2 years ago.haiz.
shall i?or shall i not?

i want dear stay by my side.
i dont want dear leave me alone.
i need dear all the time.

i need you...

i feel lost now.
i need a hug now.a tight tight one if possible.
i need some encouragement now.

i need you...

went to NUS with jacyln,kexin,esther early in the morning.there were so many people at the singapore custom.we,i mean me and jacyln,waited for about half an hour lo!!about 11am only reach kranji mrt station.esther was our tour guide for today NUS trip.actually we went there because we teman kexin for her interview.faculty of science.went to subway for our lunch.not really nice la.but it's something new to me,so i just tried lo.met wenshu there.waiting for kexin for her interview.then we took bus and go to jurong east.then went to IMM.but couldn't get the thing i want to buy.haiz.esther went for tuition.we went back to jb.it was so tiring.

esther was accepted by Cambridge!that genius la!oh ya!saw her photo when she went to hongkong for holiday.so nice!salute her la.go there by herself.alone leh!just because she miss him.haha.was thinking if she's going to Cambridge,he's in singapore.long distance leh!how are they going to maintain their relationship o...poor girl la...anyway,esther is still so cute!still the girl that i know last time.

redang trip.jacyln told me juivy and kim wanne go too.esther wanne join us too.kexin and wenshu still thinking.i really hope that kexin will go with us.eehsin too!!after school holiday,should be 8th june ba...are you guys ok with it?if can,should try to book liao...hopefully got room for us.we can get family package o!hehe^^really looking forward to the trip la!
jacyln was saying wants me to wear bikini.so i said if she's wearing,then i will wear too.hehe^^should choose a date go and buy together ha.
we should get few guys accompany us to redang there.they said got lots of malay guys there.might harass us.because we all girls leh.so...any guys out there?want to volunteer and go with us?haha~
my dear wont go with me de...even though he's not going with his family...haiz...he dont care about my safety de...haiz...that day even ask me whether me and jacyln bought the ticket liao ma...both of us...girl leh!!he also dont bother de...not worry at all...haiz...dissapointed lo...

i know my entry for today is weird.it's really not my style to blog like this.but i dont care.i am not in the mood anyway.the only thing that can cheer me up is the redang trip ba.so,my friend,please make my dream come true k?期待-ing.

i miss my girlfriends!
meet up soon k?

ps:i want to watch sky of love.恋空.wednesday is the last day liao.who can go with me?i dont want to go into cinema alone.anyone?

surprise!!!!

hey!!!i met jacyln today o!!!
so happy^^
i was wondering whether i wanne ask her out for movie or not in the morning...but suddenly need to go to fetch my dad ...so have to cancel what i had plan...
but when i go for lunch...i saw her!!!
so...next time...when i wanne see her...i should think of her in the morning...and thinking to date her...then i will get to see her de!!!haha~

think too much liao la...

anyway...i miss my dear!!!!!
i want to see him!!!!right now!!!!1

happy birthday to my di-di~chihong~
enjoy your birthday o~

i am sad.
now.

they kiss again

“你知道吗
拥有你
就是世界上最美好的事”

“我到底要去哪里找
才能找到像你这么适合我的人
像这样
能有最佳的拥抱
还有弥补我所有不完整的你”

finally...the end of they kiss again...
i really love this drama la!!a very unique fairy tales...i want my own fairy tales too!!
i always dream that my prince will dotes on me a lot...will love me forever...stay by my side whenever i need him...i always hope that my dream will come true one day in future...
know what?when i watch TKA...i always think of him....it's like me and him...from some aspect...
they grow up together...facing all the problem together...really envy them...
last time...i always hope that i will meet my prince in school...in high school...continue studies in same uni...work hard together...having him by my side all the time...exactly like xiang qin and zhi shu ba...but i know my dream will never come true...this wont happen in me...i know...
it's just a fairy tales ba...
i miss my dear...right now...

For my dear

Dear,

Do you know that i am very happy today?
Do you know that i feel very xing fu today?
Do you know that i just love going out with you like this?
Do you know that i love you very much?

I just wanne tell you that i wanne be with you forever!
I love you!!

<3
Dear dear

busy day

went out for breakfast with my family early in the morning...after that went to jacyln's place...long time never go there liao...i think the last time i went there was during form5...after st.john...before chinese tuition...i miss that place lah!!lot's of memory...

after that juivy fetch us to her place...also long time never go to her house edi...last time was during upper6...after school...before chemistry tuition...a thursday...*ehem*
really cant forget those time we used to go to her place and have fun...doing the insects thingy...our project...really unforgetable...


after that went to jusco...redbox!!hmmm...didnt's sing much la...but it's fun when they are by my side...hehe^^
oh ya!!we took neoprint o!!the first time i took this with juivy o!!hehe^^

oh ya!!and the neoprint i took with my friends the other day...including the last time i wear school uniform o!!

what am i doing o....i really have no idea of what am i doing now...
i need someone stay by my side....just stay there and keep me company....let me know that i am not alone...anyone out there??

went to singapore with dear yesterday...bought something for my psp...hehe^^was so tired when i reach home...can fall asleep when i talk to dear on the phone...funny la....i think this is the first time ba...haha~

oh ya!!got my laptop done edi!!that stupid bluetooth~i fix it by myself o!!
*praise me praise me*

went out to celebrate mum's birthday just now...delicious dinner o!!feel extremely full now...hehe^^

actually nothing to update....cause some weird feeling is troubling me...but i couldn't explain how i feel...i just need someone to cheer me up without blaming me...without asking me or force me...anything....

angry!!!

i am angry!!
not satisfied with the service and attitude of that guy!!
i mean the one who sold psp to us...
i am angry!!!!!!!

thx to my brother!!

hooray!!!finally got myself a laptop!!!hehe^^
my dearest brother bought for me de o!!haha~
it's in white colour o!!my favourite colour o!!
thanks!!!my gor gor~
i really love it~

happy birthday!!

happy birthday!!!!
to my dearest sister~jacyln~

*ehem*

didn't get to see her today...but i did wish her last night...12am o...haha~
btw....me and cloudy lost liao la...the bet...haiz...i thought we will win de...and actually we won!!but online is not counted...how come i dont know de wor...so bad...anyway...my task is easier la...compared to cloudy de...haha~really eager want to see the show o~haha~
i have to wear that blouse when i see "her" next time...haha~jacyln and cloudy should know what am i talking about ba...haha~

went out with dear again.....cause he's the only one that willing to go out with me....*sobx sobx*...
dear bully me la!!!naughty guy!!!
oh ya!!!dear~where's my ice-cream???lime flavour de......*sobx sobx*

#know why i am using blue colour today???because...it's my sister favourite colour!!
again.....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
stay happy o^^
love you o^^

woohoo~

went out with dear to watch L change the world o!!waited for so long edi...finally get to watch...so happy^^
L still so cute+handsome+etc...
even though it's not as nice as death note1&2...but then still ok ba...compared to other "funny" movie...this time got 1 little girl and 1 little boy...very cute o!!but L still the best...hehe^^

after that went for lunch...i insist that i want to go big bowl...i dont want mi hun kuey anymore....scared liao la...surprisingly....big bowl got so many customer o!!haha~

went to holiday plaza....seems like hp become our second hot dating place liao...haha~walk around to ask for psp de price...cheaper than cs de lo...dear copy me...want white colour de....

then went to his place...play ps2...dear was so cute!!!he was so timid la...haha~
dear bully me!!!!!!!

hmmm....i swear i wont take public bus on sunday anymore!!!!
it was so scary+etc!!!
i hate those foreign worker especially black black de....if you know me...you should know that i am ok with other races de people de....but today they really make me feel like scolding people lo!!i hate them stand by my side when there are so many empty places around!!!!i hate it when they keep on moving up and down...i mean their whole body....keep on touching my shoulder....my skin...grhhhhh!!!!!!!!!i really hate it!!!!!

我讨厌他们用他们的下半部一直在我的手臂肌肤磨蹭!!我讨厌他们靠我那么紧那么近!!!我讨厌!!!
还有那些外劳用那种色迷迷的眼神盯着我看,真得很讨厌!!我已经换了几次位子了耶!!最后还坐到司机后面...真得很受不了...
那一刻我真的希望我的男朋友是体贴的会送我回家
那一刻我突然好羡慕妹妹哦
超想哭的咯

姐妹淘

这一篇
用了我最喜欢的粉红色
*原本想用我最最喜欢的白色的，但是白色看不到*

所谓的姐妹淘
是怎样的呢？
其实很久以前就有听过了
但是一直没办法明白这3个字包含的意义
脑子里总会猜想着姐妹淘应该是怎样的
但是始终没有一个明确的答案

现在呢？
也许
应该
算是
有答案了吧

姐妹淘
就像我们3个人这样吧

我们算是姐妹淘吗？

比好朋友还要多
关心
感情
我自己无法说明
但是我想
应该就是像我们这样的吧
就算很久没见
就算只是偶尔联络
就算有了另一半
感情还是一样
好到甚至会让另一半吃醋吧
哈哈

姐妹淘
还是谁能够告诉我它的含义呢？

姐妹淘
至少我认定了你们俩哦
我最好的姐妹

went out for the past few days...with family...with dear...with friends...

met jacyln,eeHsin,jieshi,xinyi today.
went to sushi king o!!honestly...i prefer jusco de ramen shop...hmmm....dont really remember what's the name of that restaurant...haha~
actually wanne celebrate jacyln's birthday in advance de...but then forgot to buy her a cake...aiyo...when i reached kipmart there only i remember....blur queen la me...
oh ya!!we took neoprint again o!!second time for this month o!!hehe^^

going out with dear again...tomorrow....going to watch L change the world!!!woohoo~~
qi dai-ing~~

shall update now ha...was quite busy for the last few days...

sunday and monday...
i was busy with the forms...the application forms...ntu...nus...smu...all singapore uni de lo...nothing special with that ba...just cracking my head for which will be my first choice...second choice...etc...but my results damn teruk la...which uni will accept me o...
oh ya!!monday was the last day to kemaskini the ipta form...i still insist...statistic is my first choice...hopefully i can get ba...god~please help me!!pray for me k?

went to post all the documents needed yesterday...using pos laju...so expensive lo!!i rather go to singapore and hand in by myself lo...maybe cheaper leh!!somemore can go there and have fun leh!worth it loh!!anyway....i posted it edi...haiz...


went to taman u to photocopy more certs...saw jacyln o!!haha~my little heng heng wants her o!!this girl ah....really can tipu small kids de lo....
then went to jusco!!bought my 7-zai!!so cute!!

today went out with dear...at first nothing special de lo...went to leisure mall...again...then go to danga bay...want to fly kite de...but it was so hot...so decided to go home....but then he miss that place...at the end we decided to go taman u there de C&M...to scold that guy who cheat on my dear...that nicky really tipu my dear lo...he thought my dear very good ah...tipu him...so bad la that guy...then both of us scolded him...waited for so long for their supervisor...but he or she din even appear lo...surprisingly...their GM came...then we talk to him...he admit it's their fault...and promise will try to find that thing for my dear within one week...their service really bad lo...especially that nicky!!waited for bout 2months edi le!!

honestly lo...i wont go there anymore...so memalukan lo...this is the first time i scold people leh!!because of their service...and it's dear's first time too!!hehe~but my dear was so cute la!!hehe^^
oh ya!!that GM gave dear 50% discount for the things dear wants to buy...haha~

after that dear went home with me...we play wii...dear was shower with sweat....haha~now only he know ba...this can be so tiring...last time keep on saying me very lazy...play also dont want...hey...but what we play today is only small case leh...din even run or play hula hoop leh...that one worse lo...lagi tiring lo...

ok...now i want to watch they kiss again episode 15...hehe~tata~


*after that have to continue applying for private uni here...
anyone has any opinion?or suggestion for me??

happy birthday to heng & zhen!!

celebrated their birthday on saturday night...buffet...many people came you know...i mean "relatives" la...dear consider as "relatives" too?!coz he was here too...hehe^^

i thought he will be here before time to help me with those stupid balloons...but then...he went to kl la...so late only reached jb...then about 8pm only reached my place...aiyo...me very brave lo...tied all the balloons together leh...you guys know that me very very scared of balloons de...
*praise me praise me!!*

dear fetch me to airport to get the birthday cake...it was so huge!!so heavy you know...3kg leh!!of coz dear help me to carry lo...haha~know what?!we took about half an hour for that "journey" o!!it was so long!!sis-in-law even called me asking me where were we...she thought we lost our way edi...haha~i was asking dear why he drive so slow...he said because he scared that cake will fall down...aiyo...silly guy la...but i like!!so cute!!

i was so crazy that night...even put the cream on my father's face...hehe^^no one dares to do that ba...haha~dear was a bit shock ba...i know he felt uneasy...too many people edi...dont worry!!i am there with you!!

dear was there with me until very late...worry for him la...have to drive back home at night...his eye sight not very good de leh...actually wanne ask him to stay at my place that night de...but then he has to go out early in the morning the next day...haiz...

hmmm....last but not least...HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!HENG & ZHEN!!!

went to school this morning...to certified my cert...the first time i went back to sigs by my own o...no one go with me o...chyeching very brave o!!walk around the school alone...even went up to office o!!
*praise me!!praise me!!*


baby twins went for injection...pain pain o...their 1year old injection...

dear came and fetch me...off we go for lunch...hehe^^
then went to pelangi...looking for balloons and etc...it was raining heavily outside...no choice...we ran to his car...hehe^^wet wet liao lo...shirt wet wet...pants wet wet...hair wet wet...very cold o...
then we went to jusco...get more balloons...hehe^^we talk...we laugh..we play...it's nice having him by my side...

was playing Wii just now....long time didn't exercise liao...very tired la..haha~but it's fun!!

wanne sleep edi lo...tata~

times to update!!
i know i have been lazy for the past few days for not updating my bloggie...know why??because i was feeling down...tired...etc...

became a baby-sitter for the past few days...it's really not a good job...it's tiring to jaga babies at night...really salute those mothers who took care of their babies when they are still small...

went to NUS with my friends yesterday...quite fun actually...but it's kinda tiring though...i really hate that selamat la...we cant stay in singapore for too long...have to come back early...or else sure get into traffic jam de...but know what?!we reached jurong east mrt station at 230pm...then that causeway link was so packed!!but that uncle forced us to board the bus!!according to him...they dont know when will the next bus reach there...so regardless we want or not....we have to board that bus...sigh....when we reach singapore custom...we ran as fast as we could...but there were so many people waiting there!!took us so long to wait at there you know?!got into the bus but no place to sit again...when we pass by malaysia custom...me and jacyln's brother ran so fast so we can get a place to sit...haha~
and again....that causeway link uncle forced us to get down the bus at dont know where...so pathetic la us...really ulu lo...jieshi's mother came and fetch us...thx a lot ya!!

and today...
went out early in the morning again...for the talk at bangunan tionghua there...with hanjie and his parents...saw kexin o!!long time no see edi...she's still very thin...worry la...
after that went to melaka with them...mmu's open day...went there and have a look...met his sister....then off we go for dinner...it was fun in the car...haha~know only i understand why hanjie *ehem*....ok...it's our secret...i wont tease you anymore...but dont gets on my nerves o...haha~i was so tired and fall asleep...with dear holding my hand...feel so secure...dear was so kind and gave me his jacket...but i think he gets flu edi la...because of me...really weak la...aiyo.... *heart pain heart pain*

actually i just reached home....1hour ago...and now i am blogging...and later i am going to sleep...hehe^^

oh ya!!i was so shock when his mum hold my hand when we walk around...and his dad really good lo...help me in this and that...his sis also nice nice de...they make me feel so warm...they really make my day o!!love them so much~

ok...that's all ba...good night^^

nothing to say.
that's all.
only dear knows why.

dear,
it happen again...
i need you...

tomorrow is the day.

wake up early in the morning today.cant remember what's the last thing i told him last night.ehem.we just fall asleep without hung up the phone.haha~and it just ended like that.
it was juivy and irene's message that wake me up though.both of them sms me the same message.

PN GAN:ALL SHOULD WEAR SCHOOL UNIFORMS.PLEASE INFORM THE REST.SEE YOU ON TUESDAY.ALL THE BEST.

gosh...we really have to wear school uniform again...even though i still remember that we have to wear it to school tomorrow...ok...i found my black shoes just now...never mind...tomorrow will be the last time i am wearing that uniform...END OF UNIFORM LIFE!!hehe^^
dear wont be able to see me tomorrow ba...dont know why he likes to see me in school uniform...but he himself dont like to wear his...weird guy...

wanted to see my dear...so i went out...but then it was raining...and now still raining...so i decided to stay in his house instead of going out...dear hold my hand...i love it!!can feel that he's really with me...by my side...

what's my feeling now?honestly..i dont know...everything is set and wait for me tomorrow...what can i do is just go and face it...just hope that i dont fail any subject...that's good enough...dear...remember what you promise me o...

last but not least...wish me good luck o...and all my friends...jia you!!

tomorrow is the day.

NTU open house 2008

went to NTU open house with my friends today...jacyln, yuekling,eehsin,chunhui,jieshi and chienwuan...we are very happening group o...hehe^^

7am then went to bus stop and wait for eehsin...her dad fetch us to perling...because we are going to singapore using second link!!we all meet at da zhou can shi...at layang there wor...then off we go!!hehe^^

we sat at the last 2 rows in the bus...making lots of noise ba...hehe^^

oh ya!!there is a sweet loving couple o...so sweet~~hehe^^they make me keep on thinking of my dear...haiz...although i keep on making fun of them....but i really feel happy seeing them together...both of you must sweet and happy always o!!together forever~

it took about 2hours for us to reach NTU...because we miss the bus at custom....then waited for 20+minutes for another bus...hehe^^NTU is really big lo...amazing!!i like the environment there...but the hostel hor...forget hall wat edi...not very nice lo...it's like for workers de....haha~

there are many faculty o...i got many informations from there o...and lots of cute cute de souvenirs...hehe^^and i love the unagi don at canteen A!!nice o!!

after that..we decided to go home...as nowadays ah...traffic jam like mad...that Selamat guy la...faster go back to jail la...aiyo...board the shuttle bus at 3.33pm...NTU prepared the free shuttle bus o!!so nice right?!luckily no traffic jam at all...reach perling at about 4.40pm...but then that causeway de people very bad la!!ask us to go down and wait for other bus at bukit indah there...no choice...ask dear to come and fetch me...dear is kind enough to send 5 of my friends to layang there....haha~

dear very bad de...force me to drive...fulfilled his dream liao lo...
we walk around in the park...so nice...walk,talk,play...that's more than enough ba...can this be consider as quality time that we spend together?hehe^^

went to watch show bout election...wow!!bn lost quite a lot o!!now,penang,kedah,perak,selangor and kelantan do not belong to bn anymore!!very surprise lo...even my place here for DUN,bn also lost liao...dont know whether the future in malaysia will become better or worse...hope everything will become better ba...at least dont become worse lo...or else we will suffer de...

oh ya!!we saw nat at ntu!!that superstar o!!

dear,i miss you.

woohoo~~

haha~when i was reading newspaper early in the morning...about election...as it's the hot topic in malaysia recently...i saw something familiar on the other page...up there....STPM!!!!haha~

finally...stpm results coming out...next tuesday...11 march o...

dont know how to describe my feeling right now...it's kinda rojak actually...
i dont think that i can get good results....but then at least dont fail any subjects ba...hopefully....

ok....tomorrow i am going to singapore with my friends!!!first time i am going to ntu o!!haha^^ya..i didnt type wrongly...WITH MY FRIENDS...not my dear...he still insists not to go there...haiz...it's a long journey tomorrow ba...hopefully we dont get into traffic jam for too long...i really hope that dear will change his mind tonight...although i didnt ask him edi...as i said before...i wont force him to do anything that he doesnt want to do...

know what...i love taking bus with him...but he doesnt like it...he prefer driving by himself...i cant deny...it's more convenient if he's driving....but if we are taking bus....he can teman me...we will have more time together...maybe...we are from different world ba...what we think of always different de...haiz...

shall stop now...it's dinner time!!hehe^^

went out today!!hehe^^
went for lunch with dear...wan tan mee...dear very scary la....dare to eat chicken leg...haha~funny la...looking at him eating those things...haha~

jb o...really got no place to go liao lo...everytime go pelangi,leisure mall,jusco...haiz....this time we go the store+carrefour....haha~weird right..?the only thing i like is we went to mc donald!!have sundae and fries!!woohoo~~just sit there and talk...it's our memory...hehe^^

went to jusco at last...haiz...no place to hang around...harris again...dear couldn't find me!!!hehe^^he said he walk for many round but couldn't see me o...he was very anxious ba...maybe you will ask...why dont he call me??we got handphone ah!!hmmm....it's because....he carried my bag for me...hehe^^my handphone is in my bag..so.....haha~

going to ntu with jacyln they all this saturday o!!looking forward to it o!!
i hope my dear will go with me too...really hope so o...but i know he wont change his mind de...even it's for me...sigh...

if you are not hanjie...please dont read the following message...hehe^^

know why i hope you will go with me?because i want you to be with me...by my side wherever i go...i really cherish every moment we spend together....i dont know after this few months...where will we end up to...maybe we wont get to see each other that often...maybe we wont get to go out as we want...like now...so...i really hope that we can spend more time together...

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i am frustrated.now.
who dont want to get into a good uni?!who dont want?!

those adults have to understand something...if you want to get into a good uni...you have to get excellent results!!if you cant even fulfilled the minimum requirement...dont think of getting into that uni!!this will only upset yourself...me myself dont want to have that kind of upset+disappointed+down+etc feeling....

the only way that dont make yourself feel disappointed is dont hope for something that is tough to get.

they dont understand how i feel...i am worry...i am scared...all kinds of rojak feeling...i am scared i cant get a good course...i cant get good results...I AM WORRY!!!!!

they dont understand me...the only thing that they will do is...make it worse....make me feel bad...feel like crying now...stpm is definitely not a good choice to go through...struggle...

i am not genius...maybe i do get good results in the past...but stpm is totally different!!!i did put in hard work...maybe i am not hardworking enough ba...haiz...

i just want to try to get a way to comfort myself...and please...dont make me feel worse...i cant take it anymore.please.