just came back from kl.with dear.went to genting and kl with his family.lots of things to blog.but i am not in the mood to blog now.wanne sleep edi.

oh ya!!my 1st year 1st semester officially end.

and now i am back home!!!

hehe^^

miss him...

kinda miss him right now.he didn't look for me since that day.three days already.i know he's angry with me.since the day we came back together.i know i shouldn't said those words.but i just couldn't control myself.in my opinion,guys should treat their girls nice,help them do everything,treat them like their only princess,handle everything by themselves.etc.every guy should treat his girlfriend as their only princess.maybe i am too yi xiang qing yuan...to think like this...
but what he said that day really hurt me....deep in my heart...i can't help it but feel so hurt...it does make me think a lot....maybe we are in two different world now....totally different world...it seems like we are getting further and further from each other...i can feel the gap between us when we are together...i feel sad....really really sad...and hurt...2years and 4months being together....or i shall say more than 2years and 4months...what happen to us now???
it seems like there is an invisible wall that separate us into two different world...what can i do now??can someone out there tell me what can i do now???i really don't want to lose him...i know how important he is to me...
i know i should took the initiative to call him....but i just couldn't do it...i don't want to "admit" that it is my fault...all because of mian zi...but why i am always the one who took the initiative no matter i am the one in fault or him?!
but i know if i didn't do anything,he won't do anything too.and i can see the consequences....things will become worse....
by the way,i shouldn't worry about this things now...still got one more paper to go before my semester break....i come back home because i want to study and no need to worry about other things.but why am i worry about my relationship thingy now??this shouldn't happen right now!!i should focus in my study!!econs!!

GAN CHYE CHING!!!go and study la!!!don't think of all these thingy anymore!!think so much also no use....he won't care about you de...












i couldn't believe that i am crying right now...because of him....i miss him....

i am worried.
my bao bei is sick.
he used to play with me everyday.
he used to bully me everyday.
but now he got no energy to do these things edi.
hopefully he will get better when he wake up tomorrow.
jia you!!

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came back home for two days edi.
din really get to study.
was so busy for the past few days.
went for my last injection yesterday.
very pain lo!!!
now my hand there red red liao....
pain pain.....

and i cut my hair!!!!!
hehe^^
quite short if compare to last time....
haha~

hmmm.....not much to update la...
need to study edi....
my last subject....
econs~~

tata~

I AM NOT A PERFECT GIRL

down.
i just wanne be myself.
the original me.
not the one in your imagination.
i am just a normal girl.
i am not perfect.
dont force me to do something that i dont want to do.
i dont think i did anything wrong.
if you cant bear with me
please leave me alone.

hubungan etnik is over~~
hooray~

total 50questions and there are 41 questions from past year...even though there are so many questions from past year...but we dont know the correct answer for some of the questions...so i just tembak lo...haha~but know what??for this subject,if we get the correct answer,we will get 1% whereas if we get wrong answer then will deduct 1%...and i am so so brave!!i tembak some answer lo!!the chances is 50%/50% de o!!haha~

two more papers to go...then is the end of my year 1 semester 1....time flies...

after tomorrow EST paper,then i am going back home if nothing goes wrong...

shall start planning my year 1 semester 2 de timetable liao...shouldn't go on like this anymore...must be more rajin...then only can get good results...and i really need to go for exercise!!publicity daddy said he go for exercise such as jogging,cycling,basketball and etc every evening...next sem will go with him ba...haha~and ask my com-mate go along too^^
and i must study and do revision everyday...do more exercise for my maths subject...
and i want to learn french!!

dont know what to do now...shall take a nap....feel so tired now...a bit headache too...

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slept for 2hours just now!!!haha~
exam almost finish le...left 2subjects...
feel so lost...dont noe wat to do edi....

i think i am going to keep my things...need to clear my room so that i can check out on 18 nov...but i have so many things in my room!!!dont know where to start leh.......
anyone out there wanne help me????

know what???
dear was so nice yesterday!!!
he bought dinner for me o!!
all the way from his place to my college!!!
was so so touched!!
and i really miss him so so much....
feet so happy when i get to see him..

studying for hubungan etnik now...
few of my seniors told me to study past year then enough edi...
so bad ha....
does it mean that no need to study textbook anymore?
haha~
anyway...i think i can de!!
should be able to finish up all the chapters and past year before i go for exam at 12pm at DG tomorrow....

i wanne meet up with dear tomorrow after exam...
dont know whether he agrees or not....

**back to study mode**

what i have done last night???
"peeping" other people's room from my room.
very bad right?
but it's fun!!!haha~
then played games for about 1 hour.
then my roommie warned me to start study for my coming exam.
ha~

oh ya!!we had pizza for our dinner last night!!!
it's cool!!!
next time we go for steamboat k??
and our trip to "our" hometown~
and many other events upcoming~
hehe^^

dear was so enjoy-ing yesterday right after his last paper.
went out with his friends.
watch movie somemore.
didn't bring me along.so bad!!

but i had great talk with him over the phone last night.
crap a lot too^^
i miss those old days when we can talk over the phone every night before we went to our dreamland.
i miss those old days when we can meet up so often.
i miss those old days when i get to see you everyday.
i miss you...
waiting for the coming sem break.
but my sem break until 29th Dec only...
whereas his sem break until 1st March next year!!!!

btw...today's paper consider ok...hopefully my assignment and simulasi wont get low low marks...then should be able to score A for this paper liao...haha~
but i am worried about monday's hubungan etnik paper la....
marks will be deducted if i choose the wrong answer wei...
funny right???

waiting for my lunch now...roommie went to ta pao...
using motorcycle!!!
note that my rommie is a girl!!
cool right????

*when i come to ukm only i know that many people using motorcycle to go school de...this is what i had never seen in jb lo...*.

shall start study for hubungan etnik now...
wish me luck ya~
tata~

study until 3am yesterday.i mean this morning.*ehem*
finally finished my pp.but i dont know how much i remember.so so many theory need to remember.and so so many people's name need to remember.gosh.

now is hubungan etnik's time.
will study hubungan etnik until dinner time.
then go back to pp again.
why?
because tomorrow 10.30am is pp exam.
it cost 30%.

whereas hubungan etnik cost 60% for final exam.
and and and
EST--very familiar right?
English for Science and Technology
it cost 45% for final exam.

ok ok....i am hungry now....going down to get lunch for my tummy soon.....

oh ya!!
wanne wish my friends

kim and weiren

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

welcome to 20~

haha~
btw...i dont think both of you will read this lo...

have been study-ing for the whole day edi.
kinda go crazy edi.
stupid pp.
why do i need to study all those stupid thingy?
really dont see the point for me to study this subject.
30% for final exam.
another 70% from simulasi,assignment and attendance.
why i need to study so hard for this stupid subject??

another thing is hubungan etnik.
i think that one better than this ba.
at least got some "story"...
but most probably when i start reading it,i will complaint again.
haha~

btw,few more days to go.
then can get to eat nice and good food.

and tomorrow is the last paper for dear.
happy for him.
but now i hate him.
he rather watch movie but dont want to talk to me.
bad bad goh han jie!!

jia you!!
few more days to go...

**wondering what i need to bring back home next tuesday??**

to my beloved Er-Sao~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
hope you did enjoy today to the fullest o^^
miss you all so so much!!

not enough time!!!2hours and 30minutes not enough for me to complete 5 c++ questions!!oh gosh...
btw....i think i am not the only one got not enough time....many people didn't get to do question5...
today's paper still ok...at least better than calculus yesterday....

can relax for few hours edi...at least my major subject is over edi....now still left with persatuan pelajar, hubungan etnik,EST and econs...
econs still ok...got 1week to study...
later shall study hubungan etnik...then tomorrow study pp....
get the answer for past year paper...
study past year paper is very important for hubungan etnik o!!

EST...dont noe wat to study also...just read the exercise that we did before lo...

waiting for next tuesday to come....
why??
because....
i can go home on that day!!!
hooray~~
cant wait for the time to go home edi...
hehe^^

and next tuesday i will be able to meet my dear^^
after such a long time...
finally get to see him~
hooray~~

I MISS HOME!!

I MISS HOME!!

i wanne go home!!

count down to next tuesday...

btw....just finished one paper....chemistry.....consider ok ba...
but i am worried about the next paper....calculus....i am lousy at proving.....sure very cham de lo...
and tomorrow is c++.....
add oil!!chyeching!!


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calculus died until cham cham edi.....
but it looks like everyone same as me....
hopefully i wont failed this subject.....
pray hard hard.....

P-R-A-Y!!!!!

back to stupid ukm
dont want to come back de
feel like crying
feel so so bad now
need someone to talk to
where are you?